Oh. My. God.

Right so...I will, tomorrow hopefully, post about the football tournament coz that was awesome fun, but for now i just need to talk about the insane things that happened today

So, the same boy used racist language twice in the same hour, which, in and of itself is not that surprising unfortunately, but his reaction at being sent out of the class shocked me senseless. He actually defended using the words he used, which i am *so* not writing down in the interweb! I was flabberghasted. So, he got a right bollocking, and I raised the matter with my head, who, I kid you not, went 'ah well, nevermind, its not that big a deal.' Racism. In school. Fuck.

On top of that I'm having internal queer annoyance at the fact that I went ballistic at this kid for using racist language, when yesterday, when one of the kids said 'that's so gay' I just said 'now, is that an appropriate comment?' he apologised to be fair, but still - normally i would have made a much bigger deal out of it, but right now just feel if i did I would draw undue attention on myself. My god, is this what the closet feels like? sacrificing a little peace of yourself and feeling powerless and kinda victimy? coz it sucks. At this rate this might be the shortest (smallest) closet time ever. Mind you if the head of the school isn't gonna stick up for irradicating racism (i mean really!? WTF!!!) then there's no way i'd get support for being a woofter... grrrrrrrrr.... says i....

right, i'm off to rant at people who aren't online

catch ya later boys and girls

Mr Green

New School!

So I'm in a new school... which is pretty exciting. I'm with a class of 32 11-12 year olds, for 5 weeks. Well definately 5 weeks, maybe longer. So far they seem... well, lets be honest here... insane. But I'm hoping that's just coz they've never had a male teacher before (i asked) and they were just in show off mode. The boys especially really need to calm down.

So in this wonderful time I have with them I get to teach not only PE (basketball! score!) but Sex Ed. Oh yeah, my job is da bomb! I'm slightly worried that while describing straight sex i'll end up using the word 'apparently' - "so, the male enters the female here, and stimulates her to orgasm...apparently" which would not be cool... though it would be funny...

And, perhaps in karma for starting this blog, the principal teacher who led my through whats expected laughingly said "don't worry you don't have to teach anything weird, like gays" which made my little gay hackles rise, though my newly minted mask just smiled and nodded. I was worried when this kinda situation appeared it would feel like dying a little inside...and you know what... it kinda did... :-(

anyway... lots of school policy stuff to read so i'm away,

See you later, boys and girls

Mr Green

60 steps forward, 1 step back...

Hello!
So... hi, welcome to my blog. How are you?
There are plenty of reasons for starting this blog, and i'm sure i'll tell you a lot of them over time, but for now, i'll just say that i'm entering into a weird new stage of my life and in doing so am gonna be closeted for the very first time in my life. As the web address gives away, I'm gonna be a teacher. And i know, already in this short paragraph i've said 'gonna' and don't always capitalise my I's but you know what? Bite me. :-)
So, I'll tell you i'm a teacher, i won't say where, and i'll try not to give too much away about myself, as being an gay teacher is something a lot of schools/parents/communities have problems with (thats a whole other post in itself right there). The main jist of this, i think, is gonna be me being closeted while teaching. I've never been closeted, even when i was in school i was never really 'in'. So when i was outed, it wasn't a great shock to anyone, and since then i've been a proper feisty out gay man. I've been on marches, interviews in papers, i've yelled at priests on telly (funny funny story!) and i've always combated homophobia as an outtie.
Trouble is, I'm not in one school all the time at the moment, and i don't really have any support network in the profession to rely on... so for now, i'm not gonna be out in the staff room, or the class room. Until i find a school i'll be in for a while and is cool, i ain't risking the bad shit that could come my way if some douche decides to make a big deal out of a gay guy teaching little'uns to spell.
The other reason is...we have LOTS of paperwork to do, and i'm always up for doing anthing that isn't paperwork... :-)
That's it for now boys and girls
Mr Green (shhhhh.... that's not my real name! gasp!)